It was one of those nights. I went to bed later than my husband, trying to get some work done in preparation for the coming day. Though I had only slept 4 hours, I was awakened by it. You know, “it”. Not worry, not panic. Just the deep need to pray.
I poured my heart out to God as my husband slept next to me. So much was on my mind, and every bit of it I knew I had no real control over. I had so much to be thankful for yet so many concerns to lift to my Creator and Sustainer, my Abba Father. Jeremiah 29:11 immediately played in my brain. “For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future”. I laid there acknowledging the Lord’s words, asking if there was anything that I could do to assist Him with His plans. Nothing. Silence. Though I almost felt a laughter stirring somewhere.
As I entered the shower, I began repeating the concerns weighing heavily on my heart. Again, Jeremiah 29:11 filled my brain. I knew this time there was no need for me to ask if God needed my help with anything. The verse consumed me as the water poured over me. “I know the plans I have for you.”
I know them. You don’t need to know them. Do you trust Me? Have I not proven Myself to you? Aren’t you living a vibrant life, despite the damage you tried to do to yourself early on? Didn’t I give you a man of integrity to become your spouse? Did I not see you through hazardous situations with not even a scratch? Have I not provided for you when you were not sure how to pay the bills? Did I not give you two beautiful children, though you were infertile? Didn’t I open a door for you where there was none? Have I not shown you that you are far stronger and more capable than you ever believed yourself to be? Why wouldn’t you trust me to have plans for you that are good!? Haven’t I proven My plans are greater than yours!?
The words of Psalm 5:3 took over my thoughts. “In the morning, Lord, You hear my voice. In the morning, I lay my requests before You and wait expectantly.” I had poured out the concerns of my heart to God and now I had to leave them at His feet. The running water refreshed my weary eyes and the burdens of my heart began to lift as I started to ponder the Truths of my God through the experiences that we have had together. He is trustworthy. He always provides. His plans are better. He is faithful to completion. He is my Rock in times of trouble. He is the same today, tomorrow and always. I can do far more than I ever thought possible through Him who gives me strength.
One of my friends always says “If He brings you to it, He will see you through it.” Isn’t that the truth!? I am not sure exactly what this year holds for me nor for you, but I do know that we have a God who has good plans for us. Plans to prosper us, not to harm us. Plans to give us hope and a future. He has those plans already worked out. He doesn’t need my assistance but He does ask that I know who I am – in and through Him. This changes daily for me, but today….. today, I am His.
As you look into what this year has for you, I hope you are saying bring it on, because I am…..